Journal Challenge Day 16: What Do You Believe In?
So this post is a day late, I wrote it yesterday but I really debated not posting it. I know that a lot of people won't like what I write and what I have to say. Then I realized that only like 6 people actually read my blog and they love me so whatever.
I wish I still believed in things like Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny, but unfortunately, you grow out of that stuff. I feel like there are a few different ways to answer this question, like I could go the ghosts, and aliens route, or I could answer with something like "I believe everyone should have equal rights." Maybe I'll answer with both, some of my answers may not be fan favorites but this is my blog. If you don't like it, don't read it.
Ghosts exist. I absolutely one hundred percent believe in them. Also in demons. Maybe not the crazy intense 'Supernatural' demons but the poor souls who can't move on and are trapped in a negative state, I guess, I don't know. I'm pretty sure I was possessed once, that sounds super weird and I'm sure a lot of people won't believe that, but my momma knows. I don't really remember how old I was but we were living in Fort Nelson at the time so maybe 8 or 9 years old. I slept in my mom's room that night, and I remember right before I went to bed my sister peeked her head through the doorway and started singing "Ring around the Rosie" in a super creepy way. That song is already terrifying, but when you sing it in a creepy way... Just no. I have no idea if her singing it had any influence on what happened later that night but it freaked me out. So we all go to bed and I'm having this dream that I'm on American idol, or Canadian idol, some singing show, who cares. The only reason I remember that is because my mom woke me up right before they announced the winner and I had a good feeling it would've been me. I'm still salty about that. Anyway, I woke up and the lights were on, and my mom and her friend at the time we're sitting on either side of me. I guess what happened was she was sitting downstairs and she heard talking upstairs. It was just her and my sister and I, my mom's boyfriend must've been working a night shift or something. She came upstairs to check it out and when she came into her room where I was sleeping, I sat straight up and looked at her. My eyes were rolled back, and I was talking in a voice that wasn't mine, I was saying something that she couldn't understand, maybe a different language. Then I laid back down. So my mom was obviously horrified and hysterical so she called my gramma and her friends Becky, who then came over. They woke me up to pray, we're not religious, but I guess they thought Jesus would help.
I also believe in Aliens, I think it's naive to think otherwise. There's no way we can be the only ones out there. If we exist, then something else does too. I don't think they look like the typical green martian, I feel like they look kind of like us, maybe they breathe nitrogen instead of oxygen, or maybe they have different elements altogether, who knows. I've never had any alien encounters, that I know of. I feel like if they ever did abduct me though, they bring me back rather quickly.
I don't believe in things like vampires or werewolves or anything like that. I think that would be cool but also I'm already terrified of the dark and I'm really glad they don't exist. We already have serial killer, so I think that's enough to worry about.
That's all the supernatural things I think. I believe in some conspiracy theories, like the one saying the government let out this coronavirus. If I suddenly pass away after saying that, it's true. I believe 9/11 was an inside job and that the moon landing was fake. How is the flag blowing in the breeze on the moon, when there's no breeze on the moon? I absolutely do not trust the government, not even a little bit. I also don't trust doctors. they get paid to push pills and then those pills have side effects and then you have to take more pills to counter said side effects and then guess who gets a nice big paycheck. Not you. I wholeheartedly believe in the big bang theory, which I could actually talk about forever so I'll leave it at that. Maybe I'll do a separate post about it later on.
I don't believe in God. I want to and I pray to him sometimes which I know doesn't make any sense. It's hard to believe in something that just has so many holes in it. I don't believe in magic though and a lot of what happens in the bible sounds like magic to me. Like how can God just snap his fingers and give us the sun, or the moon? And then, where did god come from, what created god, and how? There's so many unknowns, I know that I just went on a whole spiel about how I believe in ghosts and aliens, but I've had an encounter with ghosts, a few actually and aliens, we are aliens. I feel like there's a science behind that answer. I've never experienced God or seen any evidence that he's out there. I hope he exists because I feel like there's a lot of comfort in thinking that something happens after this life. Reincarnation is what I believe in, there are so many souls on this planet and I think they just get recycled. I read this thing the other day and it fucked my mind up good. It said: "What if the light we see when we die, is the light of the hospital where we are being reborn. What if we're crying because we're thinking about everything we just lost in our last life and as we age we forget that we had a previous life. What if Deja Vu is the tiny glimpses of an old life." I've thought about it every day since I read it. I hope your brain just shit itself because mine did.
Everyone should have equal rights: male, female, straight, gay, black, white, anyone. But let me explain that because I think some people get confused. If we get equal rights, that means we get equal rights, no one gets more then anyone else. Here's where my views might not be so popular. I understand that slavery happened, and I understand what happened with indigenous people. It was absolutely horrible what a lot of people went through. I'm a very sympathetic person, anyone who knows me knows that. All of that happened, and all of it is over but we are still getting punished for it. I've never had a slave, my parents never had slaves, my grandparents or their parents never had slaves. But still, I get made to feel guilty about it. That's not right to me. I am very welcoming to anyone until you mistreat me, then your out. I don't like what people have turned feminism into, I love the raw idea of it because I understand what's it's like to make less money for a job as my male counterpart, and I understand what it's like to feel scared of walking alone someplace. I understand what it's like to feel like my body is not my own, because of a man. However, some people seem to think that equal rights for women means we should get more than men. Equal does not mean more, it means equal. There are so many controversies in today's society. It's so corrupt with how everyone thinks they need a type of compensation for themselves and for issues that are long since past. They play the victim, and I'm not saying anything that happened to you was your fault or that being a victim isn't okay. You're always going to be the victim of something, so is everyone else. I just think you need to learn from that and move on. I believe that if a girl is sexually assaulted it absolutely is not her fault, is not her clothes, it's not her face, it's not where she was that night, it was the person who did that to her. The unfortunate thing is that there's always going to be that person, it doesn't matter how many times we tell people to raise their sons better and to have more respect for women. Almost every single girl/woman I know has been sexually assaulted or abused or harassed and as much as I hate that fact, we as women just need to be careful and stick together because it's not going to change. The "Me too" movement was amazing and I love every part of it but it's not going to stop it from happening.
I believe the world isn't fair and that we will never actually have equal rights. I believe that everything I just said will offend someone. I believe that I do have the privilege of being a white girl. I believe that people are the real monsters. I believe that a lot of cops are racist. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that reason doesn't make sense a lot of the time.
Thanks for reading, sorry if I offended you.
Courtney.
I wish I still believed in things like Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny, but unfortunately, you grow out of that stuff. I feel like there are a few different ways to answer this question, like I could go the ghosts, and aliens route, or I could answer with something like "I believe everyone should have equal rights." Maybe I'll answer with both, some of my answers may not be fan favorites but this is my blog. If you don't like it, don't read it.
Ghosts exist. I absolutely one hundred percent believe in them. Also in demons. Maybe not the crazy intense 'Supernatural' demons but the poor souls who can't move on and are trapped in a negative state, I guess, I don't know. I'm pretty sure I was possessed once, that sounds super weird and I'm sure a lot of people won't believe that, but my momma knows. I don't really remember how old I was but we were living in Fort Nelson at the time so maybe 8 or 9 years old. I slept in my mom's room that night, and I remember right before I went to bed my sister peeked her head through the doorway and started singing "Ring around the Rosie" in a super creepy way. That song is already terrifying, but when you sing it in a creepy way... Just no. I have no idea if her singing it had any influence on what happened later that night but it freaked me out. So we all go to bed and I'm having this dream that I'm on American idol, or Canadian idol, some singing show, who cares. The only reason I remember that is because my mom woke me up right before they announced the winner and I had a good feeling it would've been me. I'm still salty about that. Anyway, I woke up and the lights were on, and my mom and her friend at the time we're sitting on either side of me. I guess what happened was she was sitting downstairs and she heard talking upstairs. It was just her and my sister and I, my mom's boyfriend must've been working a night shift or something. She came upstairs to check it out and when she came into her room where I was sleeping, I sat straight up and looked at her. My eyes were rolled back, and I was talking in a voice that wasn't mine, I was saying something that she couldn't understand, maybe a different language. Then I laid back down. So my mom was obviously horrified and hysterical so she called my gramma and her friends Becky, who then came over. They woke me up to pray, we're not religious, but I guess they thought Jesus would help.
I also believe in Aliens, I think it's naive to think otherwise. There's no way we can be the only ones out there. If we exist, then something else does too. I don't think they look like the typical green martian, I feel like they look kind of like us, maybe they breathe nitrogen instead of oxygen, or maybe they have different elements altogether, who knows. I've never had any alien encounters, that I know of. I feel like if they ever did abduct me though, they bring me back rather quickly.
I don't believe in things like vampires or werewolves or anything like that. I think that would be cool but also I'm already terrified of the dark and I'm really glad they don't exist. We already have serial killer, so I think that's enough to worry about.
That's all the supernatural things I think. I believe in some conspiracy theories, like the one saying the government let out this coronavirus. If I suddenly pass away after saying that, it's true. I believe 9/11 was an inside job and that the moon landing was fake. How is the flag blowing in the breeze on the moon, when there's no breeze on the moon? I absolutely do not trust the government, not even a little bit. I also don't trust doctors. they get paid to push pills and then those pills have side effects and then you have to take more pills to counter said side effects and then guess who gets a nice big paycheck. Not you. I wholeheartedly believe in the big bang theory, which I could actually talk about forever so I'll leave it at that. Maybe I'll do a separate post about it later on.
I don't believe in God. I want to and I pray to him sometimes which I know doesn't make any sense. It's hard to believe in something that just has so many holes in it. I don't believe in magic though and a lot of what happens in the bible sounds like magic to me. Like how can God just snap his fingers and give us the sun, or the moon? And then, where did god come from, what created god, and how? There's so many unknowns, I know that I just went on a whole spiel about how I believe in ghosts and aliens, but I've had an encounter with ghosts, a few actually and aliens, we are aliens. I feel like there's a science behind that answer. I've never experienced God or seen any evidence that he's out there. I hope he exists because I feel like there's a lot of comfort in thinking that something happens after this life. Reincarnation is what I believe in, there are so many souls on this planet and I think they just get recycled. I read this thing the other day and it fucked my mind up good. It said: "What if the light we see when we die, is the light of the hospital where we are being reborn. What if we're crying because we're thinking about everything we just lost in our last life and as we age we forget that we had a previous life. What if Deja Vu is the tiny glimpses of an old life." I've thought about it every day since I read it. I hope your brain just shit itself because mine did.
Everyone should have equal rights: male, female, straight, gay, black, white, anyone. But let me explain that because I think some people get confused. If we get equal rights, that means we get equal rights, no one gets more then anyone else. Here's where my views might not be so popular. I understand that slavery happened, and I understand what happened with indigenous people. It was absolutely horrible what a lot of people went through. I'm a very sympathetic person, anyone who knows me knows that. All of that happened, and all of it is over but we are still getting punished for it. I've never had a slave, my parents never had slaves, my grandparents or their parents never had slaves. But still, I get made to feel guilty about it. That's not right to me. I am very welcoming to anyone until you mistreat me, then your out. I don't like what people have turned feminism into, I love the raw idea of it because I understand what's it's like to make less money for a job as my male counterpart, and I understand what it's like to feel scared of walking alone someplace. I understand what it's like to feel like my body is not my own, because of a man. However, some people seem to think that equal rights for women means we should get more than men. Equal does not mean more, it means equal. There are so many controversies in today's society. It's so corrupt with how everyone thinks they need a type of compensation for themselves and for issues that are long since past. They play the victim, and I'm not saying anything that happened to you was your fault or that being a victim isn't okay. You're always going to be the victim of something, so is everyone else. I just think you need to learn from that and move on. I believe that if a girl is sexually assaulted it absolutely is not her fault, is not her clothes, it's not her face, it's not where she was that night, it was the person who did that to her. The unfortunate thing is that there's always going to be that person, it doesn't matter how many times we tell people to raise their sons better and to have more respect for women. Almost every single girl/woman I know has been sexually assaulted or abused or harassed and as much as I hate that fact, we as women just need to be careful and stick together because it's not going to change. The "Me too" movement was amazing and I love every part of it but it's not going to stop it from happening.
I believe the world isn't fair and that we will never actually have equal rights. I believe that everything I just said will offend someone. I believe that I do have the privilege of being a white girl. I believe that people are the real monsters. I believe that a lot of cops are racist. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that reason doesn't make sense a lot of the time.
Thanks for reading, sorry if I offended you.
Courtney.
