Journal Challenge Day 28: How to Win My Heart

   There has been so much going on in the last few days, so many emotions and changes. One of my good friends is moving away, I haven't known her very long but I love her and I'm going to miss her. There's some other stuff going on in my personal life that I just don't even want to talk about. So that's why the journal challenge wasn't happening for a couple days there. I don't know why I feel I have to justify that, but whatever.

   I don't think it's hard to win my heart, I think it's hard to keep it though. In the beginning, you just have to make me laugh and make me feel special, the fairytale romance that most girls want. Everything is so easy in the beginning though, before you know each other's baggage and you just flirt and almost say I love you to someone you just met because that's just how they make you feel. 

   This is going to sound conceited or something but that's not how I mean it, I've never had a problem finding someone to love. I see good in everyone until they show me otherwise, and even if there are red flags or they've just got some shit going on, I'll give anyone the benefit of the doubt.

   To win my heart you would have to be funny, I love to laugh, I laugh a lot. Like A LOT. Any kind of joke too, it doesn't really matter. Maybe take it easy with the dirty jokes sometimes, I mean I like them and I think they're funny but not all the time. Tell me puns and dad jokes and be sarcastic and goofy. Don't be afraid or embarrassed to be silly together in public. 

   Feed me. Not garbage food though. Let's cook together, I'm not a great cook but I'm learning and it might be totally awful but let's try. I want those late night flour fights while baking cookies. I want to try to make something and accidentally fuck it up so bad that we just order pizza or Chinese or sushi. Share your food with me, I will forever steal your fries and drink your drinks, but I'll share mine with you too. 

   Be down to watch any kind of movie with me, if I decide I want to binge the highschool musical movies I want you to be excited about watching them with me, even if you're not into them. I'll watch whatever you pick too, I'm a big scardy cat though so you'll have to promise to protect me from the monsters in the scary movies. 

   I want flowers, but stop the car and get out on the side of the road because these wildflowers are too pretty kind of flowers. I do appreciate the store-bought flowers and bouquets too but I don't think there's much heart and soul in them. I want those nap dates that everyone is going wild about right now because who doesn't love to curl up and sleep with someone. 

   Please play with my hair, and give me those hugs from behind. Be cute, be cheesy, be sappy, I'll probably roll my eyes at you but I love it. Tell me I'm beautiful with AND without makeup on. Don't make me feel bad from wanting to stay in my pajamas all day long, sporting a poorly done up messy bun and two very large dark circles under my eyes. It's not that I need to hear you say it, I know what I look like and I'm comfortable with myself enough to know I don't need you to say it. But I want you to. I want you to compare me to something you think is pretty, not another person, but a flower or a view. That's corny as fuck and I love it.

   I would hope you like country music, or even if it's not your favorite still jam out to it with me in the car. 90's hits too, we can rock that shit on the way to the grocery store. Also, rap old school Eminem with me. Be adventurous, with everything. Let's go on a drive and just see where we end up. Let's try some strange food that we've never had before. Let's have water balloon fights, make forts, and act like kids together. Let's work out together, and push each other to work harder and keep each other accountable. I hope you would eat really healthy because I do and it would just make things easier for things like dinner dates, picnics, and grocery shopping.

   You have to be kind, to people, to animals, to me and to yourself. You have to love your family and treat them with respect. Family comes first, always.

   I want you to want to know me. To ask me everything and tell me everything. What's your favorite color, meal, song? Let me show you mine. I want to share every part of me with you but I want you to want that too. Please trust me, I won't cheat, I won't lie, I won't hurt you. Not on purpose, my mouth sometimes says things before I think about them and I'm clumsy so I'm sure I'll accidentally punch you in the face a couple times. 

   I want every kind of date, anything. A nap date, a hiking date, a fancy date, a double date, a dancing date. Let's do all that shit. We could just stay home and play board games, or cards, or dominoes together. That's always fun. I'm competitive though but don't let me win. 

   I think it's hard to keep my heart because of how fast I get bored if it's not exciting and we're not growing and learning new things than it's not fun and I don't want it. A lot of relationships, in my opinion, have that cute honeymoon phase where everything is super cute and perfect because you work to make it that way. you want to win that person and cherish that person. Once you're in a relationship for a longer period of time, that wears off. You stop flirting and doing those extra cute things for the other and then the spark or whatever fades. If I'm in a relationship with someone who makes me happy, I want to make them happier. It's that simple. Never stop flirting, never stop trying to win your person even if they're already yours.

   That's it I think. Just make me laugh and keep doing that forever and you got me.

-Courtney