Back to the Basics?

 Hey Guys!

It's been a while since I posted anything, anything that seems like genuinely me anyway. Not that I don't love low waste living and sustainability because I totally do. That's my shit. But I guess I just don't feel so passionately about writing about it. I don't know. I tried to turn this blog into an educational one, and while I love learning more and will continue to do that, I also just miss the days of this being my little space to get my thoughts out and use it as a means to keep myself accountable with goals and aspirations. 

I started this blog when I was doing my love life list and it was so much fun to do that and to track the progress on here. That felt like me, that felt authentic and real and raw. The year I spent doing the stuff on my list was by far one of my favorite years. I felt like I was continuously growing and learning. It felt like I was aligning myself with the version of me that I have in my head. It was 2020 when I did my list though so I didn't get to finish it completely because the world was put on pause. 

Recently I found this video of Steve Harvey where he says something like this; "Make a list of 300 things you want in your life and don't stop until you get to 300 and be as detailed as you can.  Look at this list everyday. In a year from now go through your list and cross out everything that has happened on that list." I'm paraphrasing that because I can't remember exactly what he said but if you google 'Steve Harvey 300' you'll probably find it. I felt this was similar to the list I made made in 2020, now I don't know exactly how many things were on the list but I'd bet it was far less than 300. 

I started thinking about it more and more and eventually one day I was just kinda like well fuck it, lets do it. Trying to find and come up with 300 things that I want in life was actually really hard. I decided to split it into categories to make it easier. My categories are: Environment, Finances, Career, Relationships, Physical Health, Mental Health, and Personal Goals. On the List I have physical items I want, mindset shifts I want to happen, things I want to do and experience. There's a lot on there. It's funny because while writing the list it was such a struggle to come up with more things but now the list is done and I'm constantly coming up with new things that I could add to it. So I have this pretty typed up list that has messy blue sticky notes all over it from all the new ideas,

Anyway, I love this blog and I want to continue it for the same reason that I started it. I get caught up in the next thing all the time, I don't mean that in a way that I follow big trends or anything like that. I mean in life my brain is always thinking in the future and there's perpetual to do lists and stuff I need to do. I tend to brush off stuff that I've done in order to move on to the next thing faster which is something I need to work on because I would love to be a more present person. I also need to work on giving myself grace, patience, and space to appreciate all I've done and accomplished in life. Not that long ago my life looked a lot different than it does right now. I was living in a different country than I am now, I was living with my parents, I had a job I didn't like , a partner that wasn't right for me. My whole life has changed and I never really grasped that because I was so caught up in the what's next mindset. 

But I moved to a different country. It's the one I was born in so it's not like a moved to France or something wild. It's Canada. But still, I lived in the USA for over a decade and that was home and I had a whole life that I built there. And then I just left it. That's still a big change even if it isn't France. I moved to a city that is all new to me and it was scary and sometimes it is still scary. 

That was a little bit of a tangent but what I'm trying to say is that I loved what this blog did for me years ago in that it allowed me to be present and recognize my accomplishments no matter how big or small and that's what I want this blog to continue to be. After my list ended I started writing what I thought other people would want to read and I think that's why I struggled with it so much. It wasn't what I wanted to write, and I didn't start this blog with the intentions of people actually reading it. It was just for me but out there in the world in case someone else was feeling similar ways and wanted a buddy to do life with via the internet. 

So back to the basics it is. I'm going to do the big three month updates again because I loved that but I also want to do the small weekly updates and celebrate the small weekly victories. I never shared the full love life list and I don't if Ill share everything that's on this list. Maybe I will. Should I? I don't know I'll think about it. 

That's it for today. Even though I didn't think anyone would read this blog I still just want to say thank you to everyone that does, it means a lot. I hope that you guys are well and continue to be well and I'm excited about sharing this journey with you!!

Love Always, 

Courtney.